I Will Never Doubt Again

God, thank you. For a miracle. For this miracle.

Thank you for delivering me from my suffering, and all my troubles. Many times I chose to turn away and not believe, to tell you I can do it without you. I'm sorry Lord. I'm sorry for the times I doubted you.

Firstly Lord. Thank you for giving me wisdom. Not to use the $830 that was given to me. For I knew where it was from, and that I didn't deserve it. It was so tempting to use it Lord, for I needed it. Father, thank you for letting Regent call me up today. To tell me to refund the money, including the one that is coming in tomorrow for January's pay. Come to think of it, it would be $1430 altogether. What a sum Lord. But you kept me from using it. From falling into temptation. And thank you that I will finally do my clearance tomorrow. To collect all my recipes and safety shoes that cost me so much. Father, thank you for giving me wisdom. Thank you for helping me clear the mess that I made. And forgive me for failing you even then.

Father, thank you for giving me the perserverance to go for the 2nd Medical Checkup. Though I dread going for it, thank you for teaching me discipline. Thank you Lord for helping me to go for it in Faith that everything will work out. Though I have discovered things that I don't want to accept, I believe you will heal me. Teach me Faith Lord. Teach me to believe in the impossible, so that I can do the impossible for you.

Father, thank you for helping me with school. Thank you for giving me the courage to tell my teachers that I needed the deferment letter for the army. And Lord, above all. Thank you for my mom. And forgive me Lord, for all the worry I've caused her. I really love her Lord. Father, thank you for giving me a mom who did everything to help me, even though she had so much already. Father, I know I've caused her so much grief. Please take all these away Lord. Teach me to be someone my mom doesn't have to worry for anymore.

And now Lord, all my troubles have left me. The enemy has a stand no more. School's settled. Army's settled. Regent's settled. All in a matter of 2 days. Truly Lord, I've seen your hand move. The awesome power of my Abba, truly I can stand before you in awe. Abba, forgive me for failing you, for doubting you. And you told me to trust you, especially in tough times. And now I want to tell you. Many times I ask for signs and you gave me, even though I knew I was testing you. Thanks for those times Lord. But still, after a few months, I chose to doubt you again.

I will doubt you no more Lord. This is my stand. Lord, you have been faithful in my times of need. And I want to be faithful to you with my Life. That in all I do Lord, that you will be proud of me.

"Finally, Peter, you can stand on your own two feet again. I don't have to carry you anymore. My back kinda hurts you know.."

Lord, I love you. I truly do. I don't care if I have a million things on my mind. I love you. I love you more than my life. I could lose this life, but I will never lose you. I have no father Lord, and I have found the most awesome Father in you. Though I don't see you, I can't hug you, I can't feel you with my senses, my spirit is within me. And because of my spirit, I can see, hug, and feel you. Thank you Lord. I will never understand how much you've done for me. But right now, I know what you've done on the cross is enough. More than enough Lord.

In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.

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