Midnight Anger

Alright, that. does. it. I'm nursing anger at 2am in the morning. Although I promised myself to try not to burst out in my blog, I am now going to. Peter only explodes when he is provoked beyond compare, and no one will want to see this side of me. Too bad, tonight I got provoked beyond my limit.

YOU.

You think you can go around saying you hate people. Fine, you want to hate me, go ahead. I lived hating my dad, I always hated him from young. It was only when one day Aunty Anna told me how huge the word 'hate' was, that I regretted. I'm not going to ask you to take back your words, you can continue hating me.

Shame us? You think you really can? Please, that's probably the lowest thing you can do. No matter how much I'm angry with someone, I will never shame him in front of my friends. Where's the respect then? Proves to me how much respect you have for me.

I merely joined in a topic that people created. And it was more than a week ago that it started. Then, I didn't even know about it. I knew it like so recently? And just because I joined in, gives you reason to come saying you hate me? Hey, come on. When they started it, you didn't reproach them, you didn't even say anything. And just because you know these people read my blog and because I have a tagboard, you think you can come saying words of hurt in my face.

My tolerance for this nonsense has reached beyond it's limit. No one ever called you an idiot, no one said you are a joke. Don't put words in our mouth. That's even more rude than what you think we've done.

Yes, you have been hurt, but why come harping upon it, when obviously you are not approaching the one who started it, and tell him to end it? You think I have that much of a say to tell them to stop it? Hey, I'm just Peter, and I wasn't the one who started it. So, stop coming to me asking me to help you out. The most on my part is giving you an apology since you didn't like it. I'm sorry to have hurt you, at that point in time, I didn't know it would hurt you so much.

Many times I've got teased to a point I wanted to scream at people's faces too. Did I do it? Nope, because I respected them. I came to them in quiet and told them off. We got things worked out, and the person never teased me again. Now, isn't that a better solution?

You made me so mad, I was screaming in my room. Not many people can boast of making me so pissed. Why come ranting, when you're not approaching the right people? I can only help you that much, if you don't want to help yourself, I can't too.

And the thing about the movie. He has his right to choose who he wants to bring to watch the movie. Just because he asked me to watch the movie, makes me in the wrong for watching it with him? He didn't fail you, he isn't a liar, don't make him out to be. All he did was ask me to watch it, because like you, he thought everyone else has watched it.

"Peter, why you go watch with him?"

So, I tell you what. Next time anyone asks me to watch a movie, I will ask him whether anyone else has asked him to watch, and whether he promised to watch it with anyone else? Gosh. If I do that, I rather not watch it. My friend asks me to watch a movie, of course I'll say yes. Which fool would say 'no' to a discounted movie?

No one is a liar, no one meant to make you out to be a joke. Stop blowing things out of proportion, it only gets worse. And your words hurt people. I, for one, am very pissed with all that you've said. You made me so mad.

I cannot stand losing my temper. I was honestly going to thrash things in my room. Only my close friends will ever know what I look like when I burst out in anger. Thank God I didn't. Hey, we still have a long way ahead. It's all up to you man. The stayover is this saturday. You either get this sorted out by then, or it's going to be awkward facing everyone. And anyway, we all want a good stayover right?

Tsk. You made me so mad. Why man? I cannot stand losing my temper. Tsk tsk. Alright, I hope I can ease my anger and go sleep. 2.15am, at least I feel just a bit better. Please take care of yourself, nursing so much hurt and anger only worsens things. Please sort things out. I love you bro.

God Bless.

*cries*